4th March 2008
Tuesday, 4 March 2008, 6:33 pm
TODAY

i finally realized and found out something bout myself....
i realized that i ve been surrounded by emptiness... Although i got lotsa friends but still i can feel the emptiness haunting me outside the shell of my fragile soul. Actually i would like to say it this way, i dont find any meaningful thing in my life. Things that bumped into me are most likely shitty things. Hate my life. i wonder why ppls can lived their life happy and fun while i cant. is it because they got all what they desire.. ?? who knows? my life, full of downs but no up, seriously i do hate it very much. Everything is so boring, everyone's so fake, everybody's empty, everything is so messed up ! Extremely moody and extremely DOWN ! Fuck it.
let me introduce my real fren that had been shadowing me these few years - LONELINESS !
he's been a fren of mine since a few years back. i felt so numb, so cold. Sometimes i even wonder why is it my existence will bring so much torment to me ? sighhh.
Life is unfair. we dont get things that we wanted even u give out or sacrifice alot. Life sucked to the max. Life is freaking unfair, im not saying that it should be, i've even suspect that i got split personalities myself sometimes.

My life :
Mental problem ×
Emo ×
Singleness ×
Emptiness ×
Lonliness ×
Sadness ×
Pain ×
Health
Charm
Wealth