5th June 2008
Thursday, 5 June 2008, 5:51 pm
Time went passed so fast and it's already 3 months since i last log in and keep my place updated. Well, it's been a while, it's been a while. Things are so fucked up during these 3 months. In short, my life was like a total disaster in these 3 months. Many stupid things happened, but there's some happy stuffs did happened too. Well, what can i say is, miserable stuffs happened much much more than happy stuffs. sighh... It's been a hectic, busy, tiring 3 months as i had been working my ass off. First of all, starting from where i stop, i felt that i gain much more stronger than before. But as a matter of fact, she left me. what a sad ending, but im all okay right now. so what the fuck right ?? life is full of ups and downs, but hell no i totally disagree with that, compared to others, my life is like downs all the way down but not ups u all know ?? as i told u before, this place is like a place for me to shout out and scream my heart out. Too bad nobody knows, nobody is willing to ask and care bout what actually happened to me. I was quite busy working my ass off in the stupid construction firm till mid of April, during that time, i meet with an accident. injured my elbow of course. i am okay, i dont blame anyone for that. was a bit buys after that preparing for my resit papers, oh my gosh! i do really hate resit papers but no way they kept coming non stop, totally like what the fuck... Things happened just too fast during the holiday as we finally get together after a year of dragging and stuffs. i was so so so happy that time and well, time flies like a blink of an eye. The day has come. One day, when i was working in the SONY fair in gurney, she had told me that she wish to end it with me. well, what can i say?? could i say no for it ?? since she's so confirm bout it, what else i can do? oh yeah guys, hard to tell that, i did actually cried for her. stupid enough huh ? haha.. that's what i thought of too. =] i hate myself cause im too obsessed to her. it's like the first time i had been hurt till a level. arghhh shit, i kept repeating what she used to said. god damn it. nevermind bout that, i was totally disappointed on which what she did to me. nvm nvm, this is just another test of my life, i know god was trying to test me. But then, god, are you happy now ?? as u succeeded in torturing my life. hahaha... im quite happy as well cause u made my life even more miserable than ever right now. But its okay, its only a part of my fucked up life. and now, i guess its been 2 weeks d, since what happened, i still cant get over it. sighhhh.... please devil, show me a darker path to my happy life, will you ?? oh yeah, by the way, i cant even graduate in time, as a result, i have to repeat all the fucking shit that i used to do. enough said, was a total disappointment for the past few months and i don't hope for much better life for the next few months.
Dreams Ends After 2 weeks : ='(