Thursday, 1 January 2009, 5:58 pm
29th December 2008

Monday, since that day she had to follow her mum to Kulim to visit her relatives, and since that the whole afternoon i dont get to use my car till evening, therefore i stayed at home. It was a rainy day, till around 8pm, she called me and i went to fetch her at One stop where her mum drop her there.

At first we wanted to go for a movie, but, not much time left and end up we jalan-jalan inside Gurney and Seang called her and after that we all decided to go for supper at Subaidah again at bout 9.30pm. I thought that Seang they all will reach late because their timing very bad. You had to let them know that we will meet at 9.30 pm if we decided to meet at 10pm. Sweat. But suprisingly this time Seangs and Earns reached earlier than me. We makan alot that day and something happened. I dont felt like telling it in here so i will just skip. Things ended up where Fiona cried and Seang had to console her and we left Subaidah before 12am and i fetched her home.

30th December 2008

Today woke up damn boring in the morning. At bout 4.30pm, Earns reached my place and fetch me to meet up Seang and her at her place. Today, Earns fetched us all to Tesco to buy some stuffs. At first we went to Tesco, we bought all the things that we wanted to buy, but theres still a few to buy. Our sy jays gave us somw wrong information. Thanks to him. Haha. Here's some pictures that we had taken that day at Tesco.

After leaving Tesco, we went to makan fried rice, inteoduced by Seang near Subaidah. After makan, went to Tesco Extra to buy coke and stuffs. This time our sy jays gave us another wrong information again, as a result we had to go to Queensbay to buy the bbq set. lol. We had taken a long way to get all the stuffs ready. After buying all the stuffs. Earns fetched us back, one by one, from giving me a ride back first because my house is like so damn far followed by her. Anyway, thanks for coming out and buying stuffs with us.

31st December 2008

The last day of 2008. Looking back on what i've done in 2008, its a total waste, a total disaster. But till now i still cant find my own path that suits me. Really in a blur case ? Okay, leave out all the unhappy things aside. The last day of 2008 we should be happy what. But, to be honest i cant be happy. Yesterday, alot of things happened. First of all, thank you for the sweater that you have bought me as my belated birthday present 2 years ago. Thank you, I like it. Many things came to me at once, i cant take all of them all of the sudden. Felt very tired and i felt that i have alot of indirect pressure pressing down on me. I felt uneasy. First, i still cant find my direction or i can say my path on how my life should go on. Seriously i still dont have any clue, like i've been living pointless and wasting all the times i had now. Since i graduated from high school, i've been searching for this path that i've mentioned before but seemed that i had failed miserably. Its like, i had been wasting years of time doing nothing, like no point, no motivation at all, living my life like a zombie. I dont know how to tell you guys, is it looking for the path that i really wanted to is so hard for me? These few years i only know how to waste my time, waste money to hang out with friends, enjoying life, chilling... Think back, its such a waste. Well, im 21 this year, everybody should had a target of their life but unfortunately i dont have one yet. Although i dont felt sorry for my parents as they dont really understands me. Due to my family problems, so here am i, today's Eugene, full of problems. So its still a maze to me where i can find my path. Endless. Secondly, my love life was a total mess this year. All the wrong timing and stuffs. Im really tired of it. Recently, its even harder i guess. You came back for me so suddenly and you still wanna be with me even though you knew that i love the other her. Seriously i dont know how to deal with it. Well after several nights of thinking, i decided that we will still be friends k? I wont avoid you and treat you cold k? After all, i still wanna be friends with you. I still love her very much and i cant let go of her. Sorry for my stubbornness. Please save me, take me home Im speechless and confused currently. I think i will stop here as for today's update.

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