Thursday, 18 March 2010, 11:45 pm
Its been 4 days. These 4 days are kinda slow to me. My time, every minutes, every seconds, seemed so slow to me, it freeze and passed so slow, and within these moments, i kept thinking about the time we used to had together, all those happy and sweet moments. After i came back to Penang, i tried everything to do anything just for her. I know you will keep on say that its not worth it for me, but for me, my answers will still be the same, i wont give up on you, as you are the one that i really really do love very much. You asked me to forget bout you, I cant, even though a thousand times i told myself that i had to do so, but seriously i cant, i cant live within my own lies. I am very very very down and sad after you told me that thing. NO joke, its really really do hurt me alot, like a millions of dagger stabbed into my heart at once. Every night i woke up because i cant sleep, every night i dream about you, waking up and knowing this is the truth that you had left me. Waking up almost every night with the taste of tears made me realized that i cried again that night. I know begging things and stuffs wont work on you, but deep down within me i am praying hard and harder as days goes by. You said you needed time, i had all the time in the world. i am not rushing you for anything, just wanted you to know, please do seriously think bout it first only make your decision that i am worth it okay? I will wait for you no matter what happened. Just wanted you to know that, my feelings towards you wont change no matter what happened. I realized that i had fallen in love with you deeper than i can ever imagine. Just hope that you could just give me one last chance just to make things right this time, i promised you i wont messed up and i can assure you that i am not the old Eugene you had ever knew.

P/S : I still love you like how i did at 050109